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April 16, 2009 00:41 +0000  |  Green Party Politics Provincial Campaign 2009 Why I'm Here 12

I got an email from a friend of mine (who would prefer to remain nameless) today containing a short list of ridings in BC not yet running a Green Party Candidate. She then followed it with a mischevous suggestion: "You should run!".

The idea was crazy really. While I have a lot of experience canvassing for candidates both here and in Toronto, I'd never run as a candidate myself. I don't have any money for a race, or a campaign manager, or any idea how to wage a campaign really. What I do have is some serious skill when it comes to thinking on my feet and talking about things about which I'm passionate... and so the thought occured to me: "Why not?"

I sat down and thought out what I wanted to say and emailed the Green Party's BC office with the following:

I'm unsure as to the proper format of emails like this one, so do forgive me if this appears too informal or unpolished for the occasion, but I'd very much like to run with the provincial Green Party in North Vancouver-Seymour if you're still looking for a candidate there.

I've been a Green Party member since July '07 and have volunteered for door-to-door canvassing with Adrianne Carr's campaign here in Vancouver Centre on multiple occasions. Before I was a Green, I served the NDP in Jack Layton's and Michael Shapcott's ridings, canvassing there as well.

I also have a strong activist background with my work in public space circles both in Toronto and here in Vancouver. I've handled a series of radio and television interviews as well as public speaking engagements with City Council, the Toronto Police and the general public with confidence.

Lastly, I've long taken an active role in the understanding of a variety of environmental issues, focusing primarily on energy production/conservation and waste reclamation/disposal.

I can't promise you victory in North Vancouver-Seymour, given the numbers, no honest person could make such a claim. However, I can assure you that I'd represent the party well and do everything I could to bolster our standings there in advance of an eventual STV election.

If this sounds good to you, please give me a call or drop me an email. My contact info is below.

As it turns out, the person vetting the applications is someone I've worked with in the past, and he called me inside of an hour after I hit "send". We talked briefly about what was involved and he then informed that since we'd worked together for a while now, there was no need for a formal interview process -- the seat was mine if I wanted it. My hands shook a bit at the thought, but I said yes: I'm now the Green Party candidate for North Vancouver-Seymour.

The riding is a beautiful one, and likely to be rather right-leaning economically. My plan then will be to go after as much of the Liberal vote as I can based on their environmental record, specifically their support of run-of-river power generation and their decision to privatise the whole thing. Gateway will be a big one as well.

The truth is that the chances of my winning are slim, but they're there and I'm going to do my best to represent the interests of my party and simultaneously promote STV. Should be fun :-)

February 06, 2009 07:46 +0000  |  Environment Family Friends Self Reflection Suburbia Why I'm Here Women Work [at] Play 14

People have been sending these my way for days now and the activity seemed so very contrary to my usual behaviour, that I thought that I'd give it a shot. I'm not going to "tag" anyone to do this though since this is my blog and not bloody Facebook, but if you want to share your own, you can post it or link to your own post here in the comments.

Here's the deal. This is a list of 25 random things about me. They're personal, so if you want to know more about me, this might be a scary place to start, but it's your call:

  1. I am a very private person. This may come as a surprise to someone who doesn't know me, as I do after all maintain a blog and all kinds of online profiles. Look carefully though and you'll realise that there's nothing all that personal about me anywhere. I don't share. I'm going to try to make this post an exception.
  2. I'm happy to listen to others though. People like to talk to me -- gods know why. I like to think that I'm a pretty good listener and that my lectures are often helpful.
  3. I never used to care about the environment. In fact, when I moved to Ontario, it was the furthest thing from my mind. It wasn't until I realised that so many people still burned coal to make electricity that I got involved.
  4. As part of a seventh grade public speaking exercise, I wrote a speech titled "Why Does Everyone Talk About Saving the Environment, but No One Does Anything About It?" (or something to that effect). I was then voted as the one to give the speech in front of the whole school. I was so terrified that I skipped a complete paragraph from my cue cards.
  5. I was, and still am, terrified at the prospect of public speaking. In recent years, I've actively combated this fear by repeatedly putting myself in situations where I must speak publicly in one form or another. It's working.
  6. I don't try to save the world out of guilt, or a feeling of responsibility. I do what I do purely out of a sense of principle: I honestly believe that there is a Right way and Wrong way to interact with this planet, and I fight to ensure the former. As Mark Twain said: "Always do right. This will gratify some and astonish the rest".
  7. I am seriously afraid that I will waste away here in Vancouver. Most days I feel as if any ambition I had was left behind in Toronto.
  8. It is because of this fear that I've avoided doing things "for me" in the past like joining a choir. I've always felt like I have a responsibility to act on the aforementioned principles and forgo my own wants until those goals are achieved, but the hollowness and lack of purpose I've felt since returning have caused me to consider some selfish options. I still feel that this is a mistake, but I don't know what else to do.
  9. I love my job. I love the work, the fact that it's constantly challenging and that I'm being given the power/responsibility to write some really fucking awesome code.
  10. I often burn 90% of my work day spinning my mental wheels trying to get my brain out of its funk. I believe this to be related to my poor diet and sleeping schedule... at least I hope that's the case.
  11. I'm so afraid of what it might be if it's not diet or rest that I won't talk to a doctor about it.
  12. I'm constantly concerning myself with others' impressions of me. Alone, at home working on my computer, walking down the street, writing a blog, or deputing at City Hall, the question of how my words may be construed 20years from now is a serious concern to me.
  13. I often catch myself reliving or daydreaming about past or potential future conversations. What was / could've been said, or what will be / should be said, and the rebuttals for each. These conversations sometimes cross over from the mental space into real out-loud annunciations for my part of the exchange -- though this is usually only at home as I'm getting ready for work.
  14. I've developed deep emotional attachments to a number of people scattered around the world. These feelings aren't romantic, but rather almost familial and definitely protective.
  15. I think that my unwillingness to share is likely directly connected to my inability to commit emotionally to someone. Either that or I just haven't met the right girl yet.
  16. My childhood was really quite horrible. My family was wonderful, but my school life in Langley has probably damaged me permanently. Don't raise your kids in the suburbs folks, it doesn't do anyone any good.
  17. My single bastion of sanity in high school was choir practise with Mr. Thompson and Mr. Rahn. They gave me something into which I could pour myself at a time when all I wanted was shut the whole world out. Had it not been for Thompson Tran, the guy who dragged me into choir in the first place, I think that I would be a very different person today.
  18. My parents actively discouraged me from taking music, art, shop, or drama classes in high school. I was told that such activities were for the dumb kids and that I, as a smart person shouldn't waste my time with them. I'm not bitter about this, it's just unfortunate that I missed such an opportunity for a creative outlet for so many years.
  19. I honestly do think that I'm really fucking smart about a lot of things. I don't care if this makes me appear arrogant, condescending or superior. The way I figure it, so long as I'm open to the possibility that someone out there is smarter than I am and I embrace their opinions when I meet them, then it's all good.
  20. I'm attracted to people who are smarter than I am, or have an understanding of the universe drastically different from my own.
  21. I have an image in my head of the girl I'm supposed to be with. I've had dreams about her for years. In these dreams she has long, straight, brown hair and wears a long, stretchy, cotton grey dress. She sings and plays guitar. I am aware that harbouring a fantasy image of a non-existent mate is counter-productive and I don't care.
  22. I'm sometimes frustrated by the maintenance a friendship requires. My feelings toward people don't change with the distance between us or the time between our visits, yet many of my friends seem to think otherwise and try to reconnect repeatedly. I don't begrudge them this, but it's also really hard to make time for everyone as well as myself.
  23. I vividly remember dozens of instances where I've been wrong about something. In all of these cases, I've been sure and was later proven ignorant. This is a serious concern for me so I usually use non-committal fragments in my sentences to assure my position as a non-authority on a topic... Unless I think that I am an authority, at which point any mistakes haunt me permanently.
  24. I cannot tolerate being called "stupid". It's a trigger word for me. I'm alright with naive or ignorant, though these words do flare me up a bit -- usually enough to get me to ask question after question until I'm no longer worthy of either word.
  25. I use the regret model for my decision making: I imagine how I would feel looking back on a situation 20years later and then decide to go with the option that I would likely lead to the least regret.

September 19, 2008 03:55 +0000  |  Activism Why I'm Here 0

A short time ago, my grandmother told me about this leadership program running here in Vancouver thinking that I'd be interested. I looked into it and she was right: this kind of thing is right up my alley.

I decided to apply, which was a rather complicated process. It involved a reference letter, a resumé, and a series of open-ended questions, so I've had my work cut out for me in my off hours lately.

The real problem for me is that while I already have a long list of reference letters and an extensive resumé, neither of these are really geared toward a program like this. Thankfully, Stephen came through with a wonderful reference letter, and a few hours with Open Office saw me through updating my resume.

The fun part was the series of questions. I had the option to choose from a list, and I thought I'd share this one:

Q: Is there anybody that has had a particular influence on your way of working and thinking? Who and why?

A: When I was roughly ten years old, my mother asked me: "If you could have either power or influence, which one would you choose?" It was a difficult question for a young child, but it didn't take long for me to realise that while power is transitory, influence has lasting effects, becoming part of the cultural fabric.

It's with the above thinking in mind that I chose Gene Roddenberry in answer to this question. He painted a picture of humanity's future, and his hard work had considerable influence on my development. I came to understand the importance of diversity in a society, and embraced the idea that we can learn to direct our energies toward bettering ourselves rather than exploiting others for personal gain. This is all Gene's fault, and I intend to thank him by doing everything I can to get us all closer to his vision.

That's right, I picked Gene Roddenberry :-P Who better to inspire you?

I'll let you know if I'm accepted.

April 04, 2007 15:46 +0000  |  Activism Public Space Street Furniture The Toronto Public Space Committee Why I'm Here 0

Toronto is planning on signing a 20year contract with an advertising company for the supply of our street furniture and they're letting you see the models... but just for today. Then they're gone.

The models will be at City Hall for the balance of the day ('till 8pm). Torontoist has photographs as well. Public input on the furniture that will shape the face of the city however is another story. From an email from the TPSC's street furniture campaign:

According to staff, the models will again go on display for one or two additional days here and there in the coming weeks, depending on public "demand." How will they determine public demand? By 1) the number of people who show up to the exhibit they haven't told the public about. And 2) the "feedback" they receive to the email address they haven't told the public about.

If you have a problem with this, we encourage you to send emails to those people in a position to open up this process: David Nagler, the Public Consultation Coordinator; Andy Koropeski, the Director of Transportation Services; Elyse Parker, the Clean and Beautiful City Secretariat; and Mayor Miller, whose determination to privatize Toronto's civic infrastructure has been the driving force behind this project. Their addresses, respectively, are: streetfurniture@toronto.ca, akoropes@toronto.ca, eparker@toronto.ca, mayor_miller@toronto.ca.

I encourage anyone reading this to stop in on the models today if you can, or at the very least check them out on Torontoist and then send your input to the people making these decisions. Personally, I'm not much of a fan of any of the models -- mostly because these companies have all shown that they can't be trusted.

Below is the official press release from the TPSC's street furniture campaign:

11.5 HOURS FOR 20 YEARS
Street furniture models on display Wednesday for one day only

In yet another show of contempt for residents of this City, Transportation Services and Clean and Beautiful City staff have opted to put the models of the City's proposed "street furniture" on display to the public for one day only; they are visible in the City Hall rotunda from 8:30 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. today, Wednesday, April 4. "This is a contract into which the City would be locked for twenty years," said Jonathan Goldsbie, a campaigner with the Toronto Public Space Committee. "It is unconscionable that City staff could express such disdain towards the people in whose interests they are ostensibly working."

Staff say that they may add additional viewing days in the near future, if there is sufficient demand. How will demand be determined? Through attendance at the exhibition that is not being promoted to the public and through feedback received at an email address that is not being promoted to the public.

Members of the Toronto Public Space Committee will be on hand in the City Hall rotunda today to talk about the "street furniture," to provide the public with information on how to submit their comments, and to explain why this is just the latest fait accompli in a process marked by staff's and the Mayor's indifference towards the wishes and desires of the people of Toronto.

Edit: 2007.04.04 13:15:00

This just in: Jonathan (the TPSC street furniture coordinator) just got this email from the street furniture staff people:

Efforts have been ongoing with Facilities and Real Estate at Toronto City Hall to extend the viewing period of the street furniture models.

Confirmation has been received that street furniture models will be on display at City Hall (west side of rotunda) for a total of five days.

  • 8:30am to 8:00pm (April 4, 2007)
  • 8:30am to 4:30pm (April 5, 2007)
  • 8:30am to 4:30pm (April 10, 2007)
  • 8:30am to 4:30pm (April 11, 2007)
  • 8:30am to 4:30pm (April 12, 2007)

Thank you for expressing interest. More information is available at toronto.ca/streetfurniture.

February 08, 2007 19:46 +0000  |  Why I'm Here 0

Tonight is the big night. As the coordinator, I'm actually quite terrified.

Our "Cameras in Public Spaces" campaign has been working to get as much media attention on the issue of CCTV as possible and tonight might be the night that it actually works. We've directed all of our political and media contacts to one venue at the same time in the hopes of "making a crucible, which I hope will force out the truth". The future of the campaign will probably be decided at this event.

I'll post after it's all over, but until then, I'll include our press release which was distributed to various media-folk last night and will be available at the event as well.

Wish me luck ;-)

Edit: 2007.02.09 08:50:00

It went quite well, though there wasn't nearly as much media there as I had hoped. However, barring the representation the BIAs had there (the six of them sat as a group in suits and ties) the support in the attendees was roughly 60/40... against cameras.

We each got in some good comments and many of us were met with applause. Some of us took multiple turns at the mic and I got a copy of our press release into the hands of the NOW magazine reporter who dropped in. He mentioned that he'd want to do an interview next week which is rather exciting.

The most important element of the evening though I feel was the presence of Councillor Pam McConnell, Vice Chair of the TPSB. She was only able to stay 'till 8pm, but was there for our most important questions including my "It's great that you're getting 2million dollars for this from the province, but given that you've committed to no reduced police presence, where is the money for CCTV going to come from? Toronto is broke, are our taxes going to be raised to support this?" Their response was exactly what I wanted McConnell to hear, they'd have to review the budget when the time comes.

Now begins the work of setting up a propper website to act as a sort of watch-dog system. Find any problems with the pilot that could be used to skew the results when they come in. It's less fun, but a lot less stressfull.

February 08, 2007 02:08 +0000  |  Why I'm Here 6

CityTV called me today to ask if I'd be available for an interview. They just showed up with a beautiful reporter and her anchorman and asked me some questions on camera in the lobby of my building regarding the TPSC's position on CCTV in Toronto.

Anyway, if I don't end up on the cutting room floor, I'll be on the 11pm segment tonight. How cool is that? I'll post a link to the online version if there ever is one.

Edit: 2007.02.08 08:10:00

And here's the link!. Watch carefully, I'm only there for about 2seconds :-(

February 02, 2007 20:44 +0000  |  Why I'm Here 7

So last night's meeting with the Toronto Police Services Board over CCTV was interesting. For starters, the auditorium was nearly empty. I figure this is partly because of the lack of publicity the event got, as well as the general apathy most of the public seem to have about CCTV. Regardless, in a room suited for about 200, there were roughly 7-10 citizens and 20 officers of varying stripes.

This lack of turnout though meant that the TPSC message got a lot of time at the mic. I was probably up there for about 20minutes asking question after question, Stephen went up twice, and John had a lengthy turn as well. Our questions were met with a friendly attitude, but not so much with useful answers.

The most crucial questions of financing were essentially ignored because those responsible for the public purse, the Ontario government had no representation there. This was only the police. So, questions regarding the total cost of purchasing and maintenance, where that money was coming from etc. all were effectively met with an "I don't know, ask Queen's Park" line.

Similarly, questions regarding their sources such as when I asked about which studies they were citing to support their desire for CCTV were met with vague answers like "Well, we read all the sources to acquire a balanced view". When pressed for more specific papers, he could only offer the names of two:

Pushing for more got me nowhere. We've read the Spriggs & Gill report and it flat-out says that cameras have little effect and cost way too much for the benefits involved.

Some more info that we gleaned from the experience included that they'll be tendering an RFP to City Hall regarding who to buy the cameras from, and the results of this pilot will be analysed by themselves as well as "A BC University... I can't remember which one". My guess is that he was thinking about SFU, but I can't know for sure.

They intend to purchase 15 cameras for use in 4 regions including Queen & Lansdowne, Jane & Finch and two others.

We also got them to commit on a few things:

  • Decisions to erect cameras were a decision for City Hall
  • They are not accepting money from BIAs (whatever that means)
  • Beat cop numbers will not decrease with the presence of cameras

The important thing we walked away from this with was that this pilot is a done deal It's already paid for by the provincial government and they're simply following through with it. We have a lot in store for what's next, but for those looking for how I feel about this all so far, I'd have to go with "uneasy, but pleased at the moment".

Edit: 2007-02-03 00:33:00

I forgot the coolest part: There was a reporter from The Toronto Sun there, and he quoted me in his story.

January 28, 2007 18:52 +0000  |  Why I'm Here 3

Community Meeting Regarding Closed Circuit Television

Thursday February 1st, 2007

7:00 pm – 9:00 pm

West Toronto Secondary School
330 Lansdowne Avenue

Auditorium

A 30 minute presentation on closed circuit television will be provided followed by an open forum question and answer period.

EVERYONE WELCOME

Community input is vital!

For information contact:

11 Division 14 Division

416.808.1119
416.808.1500

Note that it's a "question and answer period" and not a call for input. I imagine that this will be quite frustrating and/or patronising, but I'm going regardless. At the very least, it could be a good source of information.

January 19, 2007 14:47 +0000  |  Personal Life Why I'm Here

A blog is about you. Originally, these things were invented as a sort of personal reflection place, a diary of sorts. I never really intended my blog to be like that, but in a case like this, I'm not sure where else I work this stuff out.

Stress is getting in the way of my personal life. Normally, I'm a laid-back kind of person, but lately, with the TPSC, the new job and Melanie happening, I've found myself continuously exhausted.

It's important to note that the use of the word "exhausted" here is not meant to mean "sleepy". Rather, I'm burning out. The thought of going back through my email to answer the 12 or so people who are waiting on me literally makes me queezy. I can't focus on anything it seems and I think my personal life is deteriorating as a result.

I just need... rest.

January 11, 2007 18:03 +0000  |  Why I'm Here 1

Last night, the Toronto Public Space Committee's General Membership voted to make the Cameras in Public Spaces campaign official, and appointed me as the coordinator. Now we're going to start on the fun stuff of figuring out how to manage the campaign, which demographics to target (police board, general public, City Hall, the media etc.) and how exactly to wage the campaign. Some suggestions so far have included public tours of where the cameras appear, deputations to the police board and others, but presently, I'm just too burnt out to think of it all. I've been to a TPSC meeting every night this week right after work so I'm going to take a few days to clear my head before diving back in.

Fun times :-)